Bucket list: 40 for 40
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![dithering of my face, black and white of my face](/img/meat30.webp)

Two months until thirty. Ten years until forty. Forty things I want to experience in between:

1. Hold a talk or an event at the Colosseum
2. Win a BJJ match
3. Attend a Sufi dhikr ceremony
4. Play an official soccer match again
5. Live in California again, specifically the bay area
6. Attend a jhana retreat
7. Learn how to sharpen knives properly
8. Be in the best shape of my life (the leanest or the most effective I have ever been)
9. Host at a technical conference
10. Learn a Latin language
11. Have someone come up to me and tell me something I wrote or said inspired them
12. Learn Arabic, read books from the golden age of Islam
13. Hold Swiss, German, and Turkish passports
14. Have equity in something, acquire land
15. Be married
16. Have kids
17. Leave something that gave me enormous success because the marginal loss was greater
18. Achieve enlightenment/fana, only the beginning
19. Maintain a narrated chronicle of my life, week by week, marking what happened
20. Complete a multi-day water fast
21. Record my parents telling their life story
22. Do improv at an open mic session
23. Run one marathon every year
24. Build a network where any two phone calls can solve almost any problem
25. Write my dad a letter in Turkish that makes him cry
26. Go a full year without missing a single day of publishing
27. Try transcranial ultrasound neuromodulation
28. Go back to Dortmund and give a talk or workshop for kids there
29. Start doing videos
30. Visit Korea, China, Tibet, Nepal
31. Learn my mom's recipes
32. Do a major contribution to a technical project I love
33. Have a real, extended conversation with someone whose watcher also never sleeps
34. Fund someone else's dream with no strings attached
35. Keep a powerful secret and never leverage it
36. Learn three chords and write one song and record yourself singing it
37. Reclaim something abandoned (a neighborhood, a company, a tradition, an idea) and make it alive again, and make it outlive you
38. Build an artifact that is simultaneously machine, art, and prayer
39. Learn [dancing on a longboard](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynakjV77kZk)
40. Increase liberty and happiness in the world

See ya in 10 years.